I can hear my housemate and a guy she brought back going for it ! Help distract me please :)

I try or pretend to enjoy what my friend enjoy. Their crappy music and. Sappy taste on guys. But I don’t. I like slow music with meaningful lyrics and pretty boys and sexy girls. Why am I ashamed of this? Because I know they’re shallow and wouldn’t talk to me. They’re selfish bitches of I’m honest. I have 2 close girl Mayes, 1 of which is my bestie and I’m sure would be there for me. I’m 20. I shouldn’t still be hiding my true self yet I am. I need to be true to myself and do things that make me happy rather than go on nights out to shitty clubs. All my friends have a random guy int heir bed tonight, which makes me feel sick as they’re All Chavs. I need a real guy or sexy girl. In glad my beds empty tonight. In looking for someone in happy to take to my bed and who I can really enjoy being their x

She was amazing !
Gorgeous dark brown hair.

I danced with her for ages. We kissed a lot. We smiled and laughed.

I was out with my lesbian cousin, but she didn’t know I liked girls and for some reason I couldn’t tell her!

But this girl was gorgeous. Usually I don’t fancy girls on nights out bit her i did !
Now wee texting :)